Believing and Trusting God At All Times – The End Of The Temptation To Continue Being Oppressed With Awful Double-Mindedness
Thank You, Jesus, for my beautiful, wonderful, precious Annie. Thank You for giving her the grace to love me. You knew she was the one for me, and You knew she would stand with and by me. You knew she would give me the greatest gifts possible – Herself and You, Lord. I’m SO grateful for her faithful love.
But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
Matthew 6:33
God wants to be first in our lives. He even commands us to put Him first so that all of life will be more blessed when we live and see everything through Him as His righteousness living in us enables us to see the beautiful, inspiring reasons for the details of our lives.
Today (2-18-20), I’m having a difficult time breathing. My last couple of migraines have caused this shallow breathing issue I’m dealing with. One of my eyes has something in its vision that’s making it more difficult to see. I had another migraine attack yesterday and had CCPTSD-induced nightmares again last night. I’m feeling pretty weak, and dazed in my thinking.
But God! Yay God! Praise You, Lord! You know all about my every moment.
I’m writing the following because I want others to know they can follow Jesus through all of life. He will be there step by step to bring us His great love, peace, compassion and matchless victories.
8 Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
2 Corinthians 12:8-10
I have been prayed for more times than I can remember. The answer has always been the same. Grace.
So far, God has chosen not to heal me. So far, His grace has been sufficient. And, the longer I live, the more powerful and clear His grace becomes in my life.
The power of Jesus’ blood, cross and resurrection are more mighty than I thought. And, I’m only beginning to understand how almighty they are.
Can I live with some faith sometimes and lots of fear at other times? I thought I could. After all, I honestly did not want to appear to be a Jesus freak or overboard in my faith, right? I’d been challenged by others’ (my parents included) comments about my appearing to be self-righteous and holier than thou. I now know they could not possibly know that I was merely doing all I could to keep my head above water in life.
I have a great advantage. You see, I know I’m alive because Jesus lives. Honestly, there is no other explanation for my life.
I have CCPTSD (Complex Chronic Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) and it has changed my life in so many ways. The biggest change is that because of CCPTSD, I cannot live on the fence as a Christian any more than a diabetic can take their meds sometimes and not at others. That’s not bragging. It’s the bottom line truth.
God showed me I was going to have to be “all in” with Him if I was going to survive this lengthy, strong CCPTSD trial. I had to come to the point where I had to make the decision to stop being lackadaisical about my faith in God. Was I going to fully follow Him no matter what, or was I going to continue living with some faith and mostly doubts believing God sometimes and believing Satan and his fear at other times?
Follow God wherever He leads. He has a good plan for our lives and, because He loves us so much, tells us to trust Him in all things. Wow, what a blessing and comfort that He tells us to trust Him in all things. What a privilege to be able to do so. Being able to trust Him in all things is such a game changer. It’s made all the difference for me and for so many Christians who have gone before me. What joy to be able to trust Him all the time.
When the going gets rough, we don’t give up on God, we don’t get angry with Him, we see all things through in and with Him. In trying times, we look for His protection, covering and favor as we walk things out with Him. He’s always faithful even if it takes us a little while to truly realize that He is. Stay with God, praise and thank Him in all things, see all things through with Him. You’ll be amazed at the strength He gives us – especially in our weakness. That’s why we really can rely on Him in all things.
being confident of this very thing, that He who hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the Day of Jesus Christ.
Philippians 1:6
I can tell I have a ways to go before I’m totally His. But, He often reminds me that He’ll be faithful to complete the work He’s begun in me. Totally His – Wow, what an awesome day and relief that will be. Mmmm…
For I through the law died to the law that I might live to God. I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.
Galatians 2:19-20
Always in Jesus…Thank You, Lord, for loving me, for not giving up on me, and thank You for prompting me to choose You every day.
Bless the Lord, O my soul: and all that is within me, bless his holy name.
Psalm 103:1
God bless,
Mark
Note: While we may not agree with everything a particular church or Christian group teaches or believes, there are times when we can be blessed by something outside the realm of our current understanding of God.